May 29, 2008 and BLOW UP!

May 29, 2008

I find out from Aaron that people are heading over to Scott’s. I ask him for a ride and I get a ride knowing that others will have a hard time getting in because Scott doesn’t want any people there. Josh and Hasan are there already. Spamps calls me on the way and he asks me about it. I say that we all know Scott doesn’t want many people there. I tell him to find out if others want to go and to call Scott or me back. He never does and seems to hold a grudge about it from his away message.

We sit outside, have a few beers, and Scott has to wake up, so we’re there for less than two hours and leave at 11:30. I give Miah a call and he seems fine with things when I speak about Scott’s. I later find out that he wasn’t…. No idea why he tries to hold grudges and not be truthful.

This is also from the same kid that didn’t call me when he was at Spamps BBQ after I repeatedly told him to. Same kid that got angry at me for inviting him to Astoria when he was home and ignored how I was being the nice person when I gave him the evidence and the truth about it.

It’s unfortunate that Scott has his ways about his house, but it’s his house. Are people really going to sway him to change it? No. So the awkwardness has to continue about whether blank people can be invited and whether he’s truthful about it or annoyed about it.

May 30, 2008

I make myself a huge burger and put it on Facebook. It’s a sight to be proud of.

I get a call to go to basketball at 4:00. We play with Aaron, Hasan, and Miah. When Aaron leaves, stupidness arises. First, we talk about suicide runs. They can’t get it to their head that my point is that people should have a consistent sprinting speed instead of pooping out by the end of a suicide. When you exert too much force in certain plays, you lose stamina for the rest of your time until your pulled out and you basically lose so much performance.

We then get into the debate of a triathlon. Evan walks over to say Hi. Now this is seriously a case of the Emperor’s New Clothes. I don’t care how much I hate biking. I don’t care how much Hasan does swimming or biking, there is NO chance that he’d beat me in a triathlon.

The fact that Miah and Evan side with him couldn’t be a clearer example of Hasan being the emperor. They just underestimate how much being 150 lbs. overweight and morbidly obese affects one’s performance at the clearest test, endurance. There is just no way his body can handle that amount of cardiovascular strain with something that only tests endurance. His “skill” in biking and swimming is a moot advantage.

I then realize that Miah and especially Hasan seem visibly angry at me over this debate. I mean seriously… We might as well been debating whether the Purple Teletubie was gay. I explain that the debate is just a joke to me and seriously means nothing. They shouldn’t be taking offense and getting shaken by it. Also, the only person to blame the anger on is me, and for what? Arguing that I can play team soccer better than Hasan?

What is more asinine than debating hypothetical sports predictions between an obscenely overweight person that can’t move in a sport (Miah and Hasan seem to ignore how there are almost no athletes with his build and how sports involve mobility, speed, and endurance, especially in something like the triathlon, soccer, and football wide receiver, which they argued in favor of Hasan…) and a 5’5 non-athletic Asian kid with little to no skills at almost all conventional sports (though I did take some track and field sports).

I realize that I maybe should’ve tried further to stop the stupid debate, though I did try a bit. I did say that we should stop because they were clearly taking this dumb stuff personally in their weird mind. Though they did get me to reignite it and go into their plans to get them angrier…

Why 6:00ish, Hasan gives Miah and I a ride back. I realize that Hasan is now in crazy angry mode. Usually, he’ll just make criticisms like, “You don’t spend any money asshole,” but they don’t get far and it’s just taken in and mostly ignored. However, there are times when he just gets bat shit angry.

He first tries to stop me from saying anything in the car and constantly threatens to kick me out when I’m trying really hard to keep the subject out of our debate and lighten up their boiling anger. One example of how Hasan is in his mode is when he says stuff like, “You know what, you’ve been a douchebag for the past seven months back from Prague. You’ve changed man.” And when asked how so, there’s no answer.

Miah out of curiosity sniffs Hasan’s cloves. Hasan forms some collateral from his anger on me by saying, “If you’re going to smell them, don’t. You’re half way to smoking them. You know you want to.” Miah then has to apologize for not smoking a cigarette…

I guess he then realizes that Miah is siding with him and has to take back his statement and apologizes. I try to again lighten up things and ask silly questions on how Miah perceives the smell of cigarettes. Even harmless questions like that get a whip of, “You’re not allowed to speak in this car” statement from Hasan.

I then try to defuse the situation by saying that we should all ignore the dumb argument and there’s nothing to be angry about. I take no offense to being seen as athletically inadequate to Hasan and neither should Hasan be for the disagreement over it, especially when it’s two on one and Miah agrees with Hasan!

Hasan defends how being angry and Miah jumps onto his side. Miah is a non-confrontational individual, though he did side with Hasan to fight against me. And his apathy is replaced by anger over me and siding with Hasan’s ridiculous mood.

A situation of this was when Hasan “split” the group and hung out with Scott, Evan, and CNF and went out of his way to ditch others in the group. I felt that this was unfair when I saw Hasan as the friend and so did others. However, he was not treating us as such by constantly ignoring others. While Miah was actually in the middle of this, he took a neutral side. I asked him about how unfair the treatment was and he just said, “I don’t want to take a side.”

That’s just a lack of bollocks. He was one involved being ditched and I’m assuming he felt that Hasan was still a friend. Either he agreed that Hasan should still be considered a friend for ignoring part of the group, or he disagreed and found that Hasan was being a douche.

Miah jumps to Hasan’s rescue because he’s also got a soft shell. He feels that people should be allowed to be angry over anything and not allowing for that is unacceptable. Then again, this is coming from someone that actually got angry at me this semester when I made stupid homosexual jokes about Miah getting his cock sucked or something.

First of all, that shouldn’t even be funny to most. If anything, they were jokes you’d brush off as stupid or shake your head in disappointment at how stupid the jokes were. Instead, he found the strangest route. “Let’s get angry at Darwin for it!”

I told him, it’s a really dumb joke and if you don’t find it funny, fine. I could care less. Somehow his logic went, “It wasn’t funny, therefore (This is where things don’t make sense) I’m offended by you making these comments.” Why take harmless, bad gay jokes are personal offense, I have no idea. Maybe someone is insecure about his sexuality… (Again, a retarded bad joke)

I explain that it’s bullshit to get angry over certain things. That’s like when CNF got angry over “indie cred.” He felt that the term shouldn’t be used because it’s not funny. If he’s angry over people making fun of him, fine. Bolanos and I have curbed a lot of actions to appease that, giving him a double standard of protection while others received jokes and criticisms (In the end, what are dudes supposed to do other than bash each other? Are we supposed compliment how pretty our hair is?) However, feeling that something wasn’t funny meant that CNF got to decide no one should say it anymore. That’s bullshit to get angry over.

Two recent times I remember Hasan getting shit mad was with driving. He simply didn’t know the shortest way and took a longer way that he knew from experience. When asked about this, he got very defensive and obviously pulled the “You don’t drive car, you’re a fucking asshole, you shouldn’t speak.” Both times there was just silence in the car because Hasan was just so mad that not even changing the subject could work. He feels it’s the right way, fine, he’s driving. I was only bringing up how the other way is shorter. There’s a disagreement. It’s over. How Hasan has to take that as he’s inadequate or something? That’s bullshit to get angry over.

What if the group one day forced Alon to imbibe alcohol or he’d be ostracized? “Yo man, you’re such a loser, you’re a joke. You’re 19 now, we’re all having a drink, you gotta have one.” While curiosity and questions have arisen over this, it’s a nonissue. If the group did get angry at him and lashed out at him? That’s bullshit to get angry over.

How about Miah? What if we all called him a bitch and felt he was less of a friend because he decided to hang out with Lauren until 12:00 and stay at home. Instead he could’ve let her go earlier and had the rest of the night doing something. Could people actually feel he should be “bros over hos.” I guess. Should people gang up against him, call him names, come up with how “he’s changed,” not let him speak in a car, and take his motives as a personal attack? Fuck no, he has his priorities. If you want to ask him about them, fine. Maybe he’ll be open explain them and they can be discussed. But to go further? THAT’S BULLSHIT TO GET ANGRY OVER!

So basically, Miah is unequivocally wrong. There are things you can’t be angry over. It’s just not socially accepted by society and the group. So basically Miah’s crazy views how to treat people’s anger latched on to Hasan’s illogical anger.

I’ll take bullshit any day from Hasan, but him getting this angry is unfair. He ends the car ride with saying we shouldn’t speak for two weeks. Hopefully he lightens up. Miah should to, though he’s not one to usually have these anger fits, but he can.

I return home and speak to Spamps about the blow up and all that. First of all, he does agree that a triathlon is all about endurance and whatever Hasan does, the morbid obesity is just too large a disadvantage. Anyway, off that stupid argument.

Basically, he understood that Hasan gets his fits sometimes and how it’s bullshit to get angry over certain things. Let’s hope things settle down.

PS: Bolanos on the May 21^st predicts Bill Richardson to be VP.